If it was meant to be in this song, I'll play for you.

feeling stressed and confused..

Saturday, March 01, 2008 at 11:10 PM

haizzzz...felt so weird on fri...shouldnt have gone la...that is why i nv really want to go to all their dinners and all..

one bad experience is learnt here..-.-

i am serious you know.. thanks to that guy..i should not have listened to him...

fri was kiinda a bad day laaa... so whatever..

start a new week a fresh..

i am so stressed out right now..not really knowing what to do other than waiting for poly..

people always say that i am always complaining at first but as time goes by i will be able to do it..

i dunno if i can say that abt work..

i hate going home late and the environment is really unfriendly..boringggg...

so what do i usually dooo.?

keep quiet at my desk do my work and to the extent of boredom i talk to myself..

at first it was ok but as time goes by i have no life..

if u see my timesheet..i always leave office at 8 or 9. so tiring..

people ask me to try and adapt about the job.. i think the only motivation now is the pay lor..

i think after the office renovation i will be more secluded talking to myself..i dun mind bt wtf?! no fun in the office...

now weekdays i nv even see my gay boys..

dun really have time.

nw the question is : SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?!

keep comtiplating what i should do?..

what i keep thinking is that i am too young to work at this kind of environment..i think i am the youngest there..19 of age..

dunno what to think anymore..

just want to enjoy weekends lorrrr...

everyday go to work..damn tiring..

i really want to study..

study only think abt subjects and projects..

bt work..WAHHHH..all of a sudden this kind of stuff happen..

so stressed up la..

im just a little kid in a big world..

the rest is up to me.........................................................................................................

i realized that the decisions i make are solely based on my decisions and the consequences of my actions will have to be my responsibility..problems have to be solved by only me..its just how i choose to approach the problem..

i realized that getting older is the worst.. =(
now i just want to run and hide till the problem disappears..

I'll play for you.